It’s time to celebrate! This marks my 100th post! Yippy! I’ve been waiting to write this post for some time because I wanted to have something new and awe inspiring to say for this post. But alas, I’m at a loss for the “awe” right now.
Nothing new to report other than my health is going south even further than I already knew. While I sip my large vanilla iced coffee from McDonalds, I realize that I have to go on a diet. Shame on me! But saying no to McDonalds and fast food would be a huge improvement for me, but my major weakness. I have to…I have to…I have to!
Mother’s day was fun. My husband and I went with my family to Wisconsin Dells and had a great time. I spent most of the time gambling though. I’m addicted. I hear gambling can be a major problem for bipolar people…. If you judge me as a typical bipolar person, then yep it sure is! I love it! My major vice other than eating and not exercising. So now that I’m going to have to exercise and give up a lot of my beloved food, you can suck it before I give up the gambling too!
“To dream of the person you would like to be is to waste the person that you are” –Anonymous. I love this quote because it really reminds me of …well, me.
“When I grow up, I’m going to be a …” is a phrase I said a lot as a little girl. I wanted to be Wonder Woman or Bat Girl, then a lawyer, a writer, a painter, a writer, a writer, a writer; but teaching never was something I aspired to do until I was forced to by my parents because of our new awareness of my bipolar disorder. (What kind of idiot would think teaching is a “stable” choice and a good choice as a career for me? The emotional roller coaster as a teacher I experienced slammed me into mode swings that were hard to conceal from everyone. Talk about pretending to be someone that you are not!)
I gave up my writing for nine years because I agreed with my parents that writing was a trigger for my mania and psychotic tendencies. But now, I don’t care if it is anymore. I want to write but I never knew what to write, so I started this blog in 2009 to help guide me. Now, I’m writing again and I’m taking a class right now that will hopefully help me finish at least one of my writing projects.
My next goal is to get published…once I finish writing a novel. HEHEHE 🙂
Maybe I should leave that my all encompassing goal right now. I think the novel is coming along nicely though. One question for you…is it bad to write a novel closely based on your own life? It’s almost a memoir, but I fictionalized dialogue, names, and some scenes. Is that a good idea? PLEASE COMMENT. I’d like to know what you think.