Guess What!!!

writerWell my book is moving along nicely! I have a fire under my ass to finish it now. I’m excited.

This past weekend, I went to a writer’s conference. I had submitted the first page of my novel to a workshop called Honing Your Voice. A top notch agent held the workshop and picked out about 7 out of 30 pages to read and identify as having a strong voice. She picked my first page as an example and said she would like me to send the rest of my book to her to evaluate and if all goes well…become my agent. Whoo Hoo! I never expected her to select mine and then request my novel. Problem is…I’m not done with the second draft yet, so now I’m trying to concentrate on finishing my book, but I’m now writing a new post. Go figure.  LOL!

I’m just so excited though. I had to share.

Thank you to everyone that has encourage me to keep writing. I wouldn’t have gotten this far if it wasn’t for you!

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My Rocky Path

light at end of tunnelLife is often times filled with the unexpected and sometimes it is filled with complacency. I just read a post from a friend and I felt my heart go out to her during her hard time of loneliness. I wish I could help her in some way, but how? I have no words of wisdom, but I do want her to know that I’m here for her if she needs someone. She doesn’t have to be alone.

Why does life have to be so complicated? Recently, another friend of mine from high school lost her father unexpectedly. His death reminded me that my father does not have long for this world. I dread the moment when he is no longer … I can’t even type the words. Tears are flowing just at the thought. My life and the life of my family revolves around my father. He created the company that we all work for and I fear that the company will go with him when…

I’m lucky to have my husband and the love and support of his family, but that could be taken away from me too. What would I do?

I’ve often heard people say things like…”Life doesn’t have a remote control, get up and change it yourself.” Well, how do you change a life that is dictated by everyone else around you? My father, my husband, my siblings…what would I do without them? Right now, I’m just living in complacency. Waiting for the shoe to drop, but not doing anything to prepare myself for that day. The day when I will have to make a choice…follow my dream or pick up the reigns my father left behind. Can I turn my back on my family? Can I be strong and change this path by following my dream now? I know I will have the support of my husband. He is the light at the end of the tunnel. I just don’t know if I can create that rocky path through the unknown just yet.

Most importantly, can I deal with the pain and emotional trauma my father’s death will put on me? Will my bipolar disorder envelop me once again and send me on an extreme psychotic episode or lead me to suicide? I can’t let myself be blindsided. I have to prepare myself as much as I can.  How? How the hell do I do that? Heaven help me!

It’s Dreadful.

Phew! So the tornado I predicted turned out to be just a little wind. I’m glad one of the events I was worried about is over, but now I have to worry about the next event this weekend and get my house ready for it. I HATE CLEANING! Why do I detest it so much. I have friends that are neat freaks that clean everyday. I freak out when I have to clean…and i mean deep clean…once a month. I know I’m bad and you probably think I’m a pig. 😛

I just hate cleaning. If I had enough money, I’d hire a service, but money is an issue for me right now. So…

I have to do it. My sister is going to help me though, so I’m happy about that. Well, gotta go. Thanks for listening.

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